Posted by: jasonmichael24 | February 4, 2010

God’s Grace

There are moments in life we actually stop and listen.  There are times we really hear the message.  In those moments, it’s rare, but in those moments, it’s possible to feel something in a way we never have before.  I don’t have those moments as much I’d like to. 

But tonight I did.

I’ve spent the last few months amazed at some of the things I’ve read from friends on Facebook.  People I never really got the chance to truly know.  For one reason or another, while we might have spent years in the same school or in the same fraternity, we never really got to be authentic.  We never truly had the opportunity to get beyond the superficial. 

Yeah, I think a lot of it had to do with my sexuality.  And most of those walls, I built myself.  I was always afraid of being myself, of living authentically.  I was always avoiding who I was, in one way or another.

That was years ago, and I’m not the same person I used to be.  Today I’m rather comfortable with myself and my life. 

And along the way, I’ve reconnected with some amazing friends.  Some I never really knew and some I was too scared to know.

While many of the barriers I built have come down, I still have many questions.

Or at least I did.

While I never really struggled with my relationship with God, I had trouble explaining it to many of my friends.  They couldn’t understand how I could even begin to think my life was acceptable.  We talked and we debated and we researched.  Never reaching a definitive conclusion.

I reached my peace through prayer.  So many people base everything they know on the Bible.  And I appreciate that foundation.  But the Bible, alone, is not enough for me.  I’ve always needed more, I’ve always needed a personal relationship with God.  And through that relationship, I found my peace.

God so mighty and strong to create us, give His Son, and offer us eternal life is as alive today as the days of the Bible.  God spoke clearly in Biblical days and He speaks clearly now.  When I asked people how they knew God didn’t approve, they constantly came back with, “The Bible says…” 

Not one person came back with “God told me….”

I don’t base my beliefs on the Bible alone.  I base them on God alone. 

And while the Bible is God’s Word, I hear God tell me how we cannot base everything we know and believe on the book alone.  We must live with God and let God live through us.

God can speak to us today just as He did in the Bible.

And tonight, God spoke to me.

Getting back in touch with an old friend who recently asked “How do you reconcile your life with your love for the Lord?”

I struggled to find the right answer.

How could people I thought would never accept my life, suddenly become friends again?  Looking passed so much?

God gave me the answer tonight.

I overheard this conversation tonight between a young father and his little girl…

They were just down from me looking at the same choice of coffee table books.  The dad was steadily searching for something to do with maps of the middle east and the little girl was simply sitting, turning page after life-size page of a book with pictures of the ocean. 

I was contemplating purchasing a book about Bora Bora for an upcoming vacation.  Oddly enough, the little girl was looking at a picture of the Pacific Ocean, not too far from where I’m planning to vacation.  I smiled and told her I was “going there in a few months.”

Her eyes got really big and she smiled.

The dad interjected that the vacation would be nice.  Endless sun, beaches, and the great big ocean. 

The little girl said “the ocean’s really big…” and nodded convincingly.

Yeah, I thought about it, the ocean is really big.

I told her “I don’t think I’ll even be able to see the end of the ocean, it just keeps on going!”

She smiled and laughed.

Her dad said the ocean was the largest thing on Earth, it had no end. 

I kept making small talk and said I couldn’t think of anything else that had no limits like the ocean.  It just goes on and on.

The little girl smiled and without missing a beat, that little girl let God speak to me. 

Out of a young lady who couldn’t have been more than four years old, I heard the answer to my questions.  How could friends see passed so much?  How could I reconcile my life with God’s love?

In a wonderful moment tonight I talked about how the oceans go on forever and they at times look as if they’ll never end.   And in a few short words, this little girl and God explained me to how so many things are possible.

I said “I can’t think of anything else that has no limits like the ocean.  It just goes on and on.”

And without hesitation and the warmest smile she responded.

“God’s Grace.”

Two words.  A smile.  And a moment that was so much more than what it was.

“God’s Grace.”

Her dad explained they’d just heard the message tonight at church.  And she was still talking about it.  She wasn’t questioning it, but rather, it’s like she was explaining it.  To her it made such perfect sense.  There’s nothing bigger than God’s Grace; it never ends.

We aren’t meant to understand everything.  And in times where comprehension is too much, where we can’t reconcile it all, we have God’s Grace. 

The limits of God’s Grace, I pray we’ll never know.

How do I reconcile my life?  How do we as people see passed so much?  How do we tear down barriers?  Begin to be authentic?  How do we do all of this?

God’s Grace.

Posted by: jasonmichael24 | December 30, 2009

Artificial Sweeteners possible correlation to type 2 diabetes

Ok.  So I don’t usually like New Year’s resolutions, but I do think it’s often wise to make life changes ceremoniously.  Make it a little more dramatic and I might actually keep to the change.  Now this isn’t necessarily true.  I’ve made some dramatic changes in my life, most didn’t stick.  Many of those wonderful life changes are nothing more than memories.   The time I quit eating fried foods (I had french fries 2 nights ago).  The time I was going to work out 3 times week, every week (I worked out 3 weeks ago, one time.)  The time I was going to learn to play the piano, my third attempt at sticking to it (I last played 4 months ago).  The time I was…. Well, you get the picture.

I don’t like changes.  I don’t usually remain consistent in my changes.

B ut I’ve long questioned the healthiness of diet sodas.  At one point we questioned if my seizures were related to the blue sweetener.  And I know I could quit drinking them, if I just decided to.  I never committed.

However, the recent connection of artificial sweeteners to whole host of medical problems makes me wonder if I’m trading one ill for another.

Read Dr. Ayala’s recent article from Yahoo. 

http://shine.yahoo.com/event/newyear/are-artificial-sweeteners-a-healthier-option-555793/

Posted by: jasonmichael24 | November 22, 2009

New iPhone application

Just downloaded a new iPhone application which should allow me to easily update my blog from my phone.

Last night saw “New Moon”. I’ll have to say it was ok. I will definitely see the third movie which is out in 8 months. This one felt more like a middle movie. And it had its fair share of predictable drama….
“Belle, I am leaving and you will neeeeeevvvvvvvvveeeeerrrr see me again. Never.”
Ok, whatever.

Posted by: jasonmichael24 | November 12, 2009

Springfield … Here I Come.

Quite a few people asked me if I was moving from Sikeston to Springfield.  No, I am not.  In my new position I took with my company, Starbucks Coffee Co., I will run operations for Southwest Missouri and Northwest Arkansas.  My office will be out of Springfield.  My home will be out of Sikeston. 

I am renting an apartment in Springfield to make life easier, but don’t intend to make it my permant home. 

I will blog more about my position after Christmas.  Even in my remote part of retail, the holidays are busy busy times. 

Thank you to everyone who sent well wishes for the new position.

Posted by: jasonmichael24 | August 9, 2009

“Julie and Julia” Meryl Streep and Amy Adams

Just in from watching the new movie, “Julie and Julia” starring Meryl Streep and Amy Adams.  Four out of Five Stars.  Four out of Five popcorn boxes.  A-.

Meryl Streep is in peak form as the icon Julia Child.  Her humor and sense of Child are the driving force of this movie.  While the two major stars never share the screen, their stories are remarkably intertwinded.  Amy Adams is at home in this genre and connects with charachter Julie as deeply as Streep does Child.  These two women feel this movie.  And the audience feels it because of them.

Behind every great woman is an even greater man.  Stanley Tucci is Paul Child, her husband, her confidant, her lover, her biggest fan, her friend.  Chris Messina plays the modern man behind Julie.  He does it quite well.  Definitely the most real character in the movie.

The movie based on the true story of writer Julie Powell.  She blogs as she takes “365 days to cook 536 recipes”; cooking her way through Julia Child’s famous book Mastering the Art of French Cooking.

Great movie and great acting.  Oscar worthy?  Probably….

Interesting story about a man who bought some antique vinyl records and then discovered the records once belonged to his mother.  Actually, it’s quite touching.

Read the story here.

Posted by: jasonmichael24 | July 20, 2009

Happy Birthday, Drew

Happy Birthday!! Follow Drew on Twitter. Drew Hill on Twitter

Update: Whitney’s people seem to have gotten to the links.  This link, the YouTube link and even Mr. Hilton’s link are all disabled.

 

The newest Whitney Houston track, “I Didn’t Know My Own Strength” by legendary song writer Dianne Warren was leaked to the internet on Thursday, July 2.
The track is from her September 1, 2009 CD, “I Look to You.”
Without doubt, this is the Whitney most remember and love. Some will argue her voice isn’t the same, or that she isn’t quite where she once was, etc. Regardless, she’s still the best out there. And her voice has changed just a bit: more mature, more real, more ‘emotional’, if you will.
Congratulations to her, and to her team, she’s well on her way to making music history, again.
Listen her new song for yourself, you’ll be glad you did.
Whitney Houston, “I Didn’t Know My Own Strength

Posted by: jasonmichael24 | June 28, 2009

Whitney Houston on Twitter: I won?!?!

No idea of it was real. Just won an online Twitter contest from @OfficiallyWhitney. I will be receiving a copy of her new CD “I Look to You” on it’s release date September 1. It was fun. Glad she’s back.

Posted by: jasonmichael24 | June 21, 2009

New iphone

Learning how to post. Looks like I can update my blog from my iphone!

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